For many of us we have become masters of dissociation.

For many of us we have become masters of dissociation. We still are clinging to a philosophy and a self that are full of holes, We have been attempting to practice the art of becoming whole with the wrong tools. We have had to learn to pretend to be going deep inside the root of our being but in reality will just practice splitting off and making it look fancy in the fellowships. We talk to God of our understanding who cannot be there for us in prayer but have no idea who it really is, and we will listen to God in meditation and not be able to realise that I’m ignoring the deepest and most basic essences of our souls the buried child within us. We are lost and will now have the beautiful capacity to delude ourself into thinking that I’m almost recovered! But we will still have the ever increasing deep blackhole inside us instead of recovery. We will believe that everything has changed but nothing will have changed except our increasing disillusionment.